Grrrr....

I really don't get some people. This is a totally random post, and that you might not get it cause its gonna be full of rambling, but pardon me as I'm really pissed now.
Okay, so it all happened when I didn't turn up for trainings during the holidays.
Why didn't a go for training?
Because no one informed me. I didn't even know that there's a change in president until I have to text the teacher due to some other matters towards the end of the hols, just before I'm about to leave for the Japan trip. Only then I know about the change in president and that there is training.
First, I missed like around three weeks of training because no one informed me especially the one who is responsible to(president?).
Secondly, I don't even have the her number? How am I supposed to contact her to ask regarding training dates?
You might ask why didn't I contact someone else. Because I have only a few contacts in the team and some of them alr left due to some reasons. So tell me who am I supposed to contact?
Then it all started when they had a what's app group and this friend o mine added me into the group when sch started. I didn't do anything cause frankly speaking, I didn't know what to say as I've missed so many trainings.
On that faithful day, the president privately what's apped me to go for training the next day (she said politely "would be nice is you can come"). And of course, I went.
The training on that day was boring and I sat there doing nothing cause they were putting their focus on those going for the competition. I went a few days later again.
Then I realised that I was just sitting doing nothing, so I decided to not go for training till comp is over cause I'll get to train then. I know that they are right to put their focus on those who are going for the comp, and it's me who didn't turn up for trainings, but I'm not gonna spend my time sitting there and not learn anything when I have tutorials to do.
Then I found out from the friend who added me into the group that the president privately what's apped him to "not add strangers into the group" after he added me. I was unhappy then.
First, you are saying that I'm a stranger cause I didn't turn up during the hols, when no one contacted me regarding the training dates? Especially it's your job(it's the president's job to liaise with the coaches and inform us of the training in our team)?
Secondly, why nicely ask me to go for training after the hols? And since you think that I'm a stranger?!
But I let it pass cause yeap I didn't go for training and maybe I should've asked around uh?
Then today, she strike once again. Lol, strike? I made her sound like some criminal, but she isn't.
She started it by announcing in the group that she created a new group for only active members huh? ("Guys please exit this whatsapp group. We need to manage the active members here only." "Join the new one we have created for more updates on CADC.")
Firstly, please note that you cannot join a what's app group unless through invitation?!
Secondly, maybe I'm being over sensitive. But I have a strong feeling that its about me?! That's when I started to get angry.
Why can't you be more direct and ask me to leave the group instead of doing so much. You have been trying to act nice while you are hating me or treating me as a stranger, and I really hate that. I don't understand why do you have to do these.
If you ha been more direct into askin me why I didn't turn up for trainings or asked me to leave the group if I'm so inactive and try to sort things out with me, I would've have a little more respect for you despite me still thinking that its your fault for not telling me about trainings.
But now you are using these methods, which makes you really despicable and evil. And I really lost all my respect to you as a president and a senior.
Okay, I'm babbling and I don't really understand myself. But I'm just really pissed.
Why can't humans be more direct and just confront directly instead of doing so many things behind my back? You are alr a poly student yet you are creating so many secondary sch like drama. I expected you to be more matured.
If you are not gonna change, everything will go.